Saturday, January 30, 2010

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Dreaming of July


They're predicting anywhere from a simple dusting to 12" of snow this weekend and even though it's January and I should just accept that there will be snow in Winter, I keep fantasizing about taking a trip to the beach. This picture was taken last July in New York (Jones Beach). I can almost hear the waves...
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Breaking up with sugar. Part 927.

I'm trying it again.  Today is my first sugar-less day (in a few weeks) and already I'm feeling lethargic and craving something sweet.  I always find the first few days without sugar to be the hardest.  At least I don't have one of those hot-poker-to-the-eye sugar withdrawal headaches.  My plan is no white sugar and no corn syrup.  I feel like I should also add that I use no artificial sweeteners (with the exception of a diet soda several times a year).  The whole wheat bread I bake has molasses in it, so I give that a pass.  Fruit also gets a pass from me.  As will the honey I intent to add to the pizza dough I make every Friday night.  Now that I'm outlining this, I guess I'm not exactly sugar free, just sugary-snack free.  And that is a positive step in the right direction.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Gratitude

For the last two years I have been lost in a haze of infertility induced self pity.  Actually, it has been honest to goodness depression, but sometimes it's hard for me to distinguish between depression and self pity.  For some reason, about a week ago I was inspired to begin my gratitude journal again and it has been an eye opening experience.  Every night, right before bed, I open my journal and write down 5 things that I am grateful for today.  That has been hard for me.  Even though I am, by all accounts, very blessed, it's been hard to think of 5 different and specific things to feel gratitude for.  Genuine, toe tingling, universe appreciating gratitude used to come to me naturally and often.  I used to fall asleep fantasizing about all the wonderful things in my life and all of the amazing things to come.  During this first week of my new gratitude documenting experiment I have learned that it is a habit of mine to obsess as I fall asleep about everything that is wrong in my life.  Now it is a challenge to not only think of 5 things to be grateful for, but to keep my mind in an appreciative place as I drift off to sleep.  I feel good about keeping the journal, even though I think my darling husband would rather the light went off a little sooner than it actually does.  I have also noticed that in the past week it is becoming easier for me to come up with my 5 things.  My hope is that the renewed focus on being grateful for what I have will snowball into a more positive minded approach to living. Something I've been lacking for the last 26 months.  Give or take.

Here are some things I am grateful for today:
1) My gym membership.(and the fact that I use it).
2) I got a CVS advisory panel survey today and earned 5 ECBs in just about 5 minutes. 
3) Husband came home for lunch and we had a nice time chatting together without tvs or computers distracting us.
4) I have a loaf of whole wheat bread rising on the stove.
and last but certainly not least...
5) White Collar is on tonight.  ;-)

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Tomato Sauce



Earlier this week I read this post from the smitten kitchen and I've been thinking about it ever since. The sauce is simmering on the stove rightthissecond and it looks divine.